"It Ends Tonight"

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.

And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
[Chorus x2]

"Stab My Back"

Now we're broken on the floor
She just wants me to share her
It hasn't been this way before
She just wants me to dare her

The phone rings
And she screams

Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you
You walk on me
It never was enough to do

I can't get past her
Falling fast
It's true
It hasn't done a lot for you

And every time he held you close
Yeah, were you thinking of me
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you're happy

The phone rings
And she screams

Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you
You walk on me
It never was enough to do

I can't get past her
Falling fast
It's true
It's better when I bleed for you

I hope that love he gave you
Was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you're tearing apart

Stab my back
It's better when I bleed for you
You walk on meIt never was enough to do
I can't get past her

Falling fastIt's true
It hasn't done a lot for you
It's better when I bleed for you
It never was enough to do
It hasn't done a lot for you

"Dirty Little Secret"

Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

Who has to know
The way she feels inside
(inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny
(deny)
These sleeping dogs won't lie
(won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It’s eating me apart
Trace this line back

I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret

Who has to know
Who has to know

hais. not posting much these few days. just stoning in front of the comp doing nothing.

tml gonna perform in sentosa. whee. the muscial fountain at around 6.30. yepp. ((: kinda sprain my leggie. the joints all a bit out of place liao den SUAY SUAY got fever, cough and very bad flu.
meaning. NO BURGER KING TOMORROW. )): yadayada .. we look like the DANCE NERD CLUB and our clostumes makes us look like SUPERMAN'S LONG LOST COUSIN. LOL. but its so CHIO. ((:

nothing larh. not long ago. got one boi in school kinda fell and his bone was sticking outta the wrist. like OMG. a lotta people vomitted and cried. very the gross. XD EEK.

okay. i have no idea wad to write liao. buai bye.

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i tried to trust and accept you, but your behaviour tells me its not worth it. perhaps i should just leave you alone. THINGS ARE GETTING MORE COMPLICATED. you cant blame me if i'm bitchified.

damnyouu boi. since when AM I THE PROBLEM. like wad the fuck. i dont know to slap myself or slap you. RAWR. thick-skinned asshole. i bet the slap wont even hurt a bit. GRRR ..

harhar. sorry yeah. so lazy to blog man. muz type so tiring. sianns.

holidays ending. schools starting
YAWN**

went out a few times. once on the 4th to celebrate yuki's bday. went kbox and i know dat
I HAVE FRIENDS WHO CARE ((=

went shopping with mom. bought a lotta clothes. muahaha.
levi's jeans ((=
**hugs and kisses for mammy

went mongolia. so many SHUAI gers.
**drools ((=

went to class gathering on ytd. which is the 23rd. so FUN.
__movie ((JUST MY LUCK))
**MCFLY drools.
__free dinner ((PASTAMANIA))
**rich kid and his BACK UP $$
__starbucks ((FIRST OF OF EXPENSIVE COFFEE))
**heart pain. so expensive
__get more money den usual (($15 MORE))
**mammy will give me more if i go out with primary school friends
__i'm the TALLEST ((166cm))
**stelly.zhaoying.huishia. muahahaha. TALLER den them
**i relise i'm such a shortie in primary school. SLEEP TOO MUCH ((=

yadayada. PCK's business very big. talk on the phone 20 min. den we stand there WAIT for him. damnyou. talked about some PORN stuff and everyone keep claiming that they are innocent and very STRAIGHT. HAHA ((= den stella caught a phone in the arcade. went to bugis to take her phone. everyone drooling. we danced para para like idiots. XD NOOBIE. very fun larh horh, but everyone went home a wee bit too early. LOL ((=

having BBQ now. not mine. my cousin's one. den i being anti-social, stoning in front of the comp. but i better get going, if not later no dinner. STARVING. HEH ((=
poor eveon. stuck in woodlands. **hugs and kisses for her
my sincere condolences. HAHAH. dont worry she's STILL alive.
yeah. saw HER paper heart boiboi at marina dat day. den DONT KNOW who was like so HAPPY ADN AGGITATED. **jumping for joy**
WADEVER !! heh ((=

got to run. bwahaha. HUNGRY XD

Burning like fire
Deep within those eyes
Something that I will always admire
My heart is taken
By you the most
It's just too bad
That you ignored it like a ghost
You took it, you broke it
You never gave it back
Now there's a deep hole
Where the heart it lacks
Sometimes I never
Sometimes I will
Sometimes I love you
Until time is still
Leave me to bare
Leave me to break
But I've got my friends
You were just a mistake
Why did you ever?
Why did you smile?
It took me awhile
Until I realized
That you were a fake
That you used me to take
The girl you actually liked
Is that true?
Is it her?
Now my thoughts are all just a blur
Why did you guys break up?
There are too many questions
I should just shut up
I'm confused now
As I always was
Do you still like me?
Or just because?


By (( SummerBerry05 ))
QUIZILLA

01) What is the phone brand?
Nokia 6280

02) What's the last 3 digits of your mobile number?:
430

03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say?:
5 min i reach

04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M:
Marcus

05) Who's the last person you rang?:
Mommy

06) Who was your last missed call from?
9355**** dunno whose it is.

07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?:
Damien

08) What does the last message in your inbox say?:
You can use msn ma?

09) Who's the 3rd person who comes up under J?:
Juan's mom

10) Go to your Sent Items - what does the 5th message say?:
The slow part leh ? Wat i doing ?

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S?:
Shery

12) Who's your network provider?:
Singtel

13) How many messages are currently in your in box?:
325

14) What do you have as your background?:
Coffeeshop record. 15 slices of bread.

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R?:
No one

16) Who do you have on speed dial 3?:
Nehh. No one

17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have?
Wads dat ?

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C?:
No one

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have?
4

20) What do you have as your main ringtone.
Jolin - Wu Niang

1)My uncle once told me:
Where is you mammy ?

2) Never in my life have I:
Sex =))

3) The one person in my life who can drive me nuts is:
No one.

4) High school is/was:
Kicking ass

5) When im nervous:
Break into cold sweat.

6) The last time i cried was:
9May06

7) If i were to get married right now, my bridemaids/groomsmen would be:
My cronies. __ToiletGang__

8) My hair:
has been rebonded thrice but its still not frizzy and damaged.

9) When i was 5:
I was a vegetarian at GRACE CHILDCARE

10) Last christmas eve:
At home reading HARRY POTTER, smsing friend

11) When i turn my head left, i see:
My brother doing his homework

12) When i turn my head right, i see:
Window

13) When i look down, i see:
My legs and my printer

14) The craziest recent event was/is:
The class BBQ yesterday ( 31JUNE )

15) If i was a character on 'Friends'
I dont watch this show.

16) By this time next year:
I'll be slacking at home

17) I have a hard time understanding:
Wad SHE and HE is thinnking

18) One time at a family gathering:
I gambled and had lots of fun with all my cousins

19) You know i "like" u if:
Wad talking you ?!

20) If i won an award, the first person i'd thank is:
Parents !? Maybe i'll thank god first.

21) My ideal breakfast is:
Tom Yam instant noodle =D

22) If you visit my hometown:
I'm too lazy to move. so DREAM ON.

23) Where do you plan to visit anytime soon:
Mongolia.

25) I'd stop my wedding if:
My husband faints.

26) The world could do without:
Parents, Friends, Brother, computer and the list goes on ..

27)Most recent thing you've bought:
Chocolate Mint candy and YUPPI PIZZA gummy

28) Most recent thing someone else bought foryou?
My mom bought a new mouse for the computer.

29) My favourite time of the day is:
When i'm out with friends, when no one snatches the comp from me

30) My favourite store is:
If i have the MONEY, anything will do. But since i dont have, it shall be POPULAR
bookstore. Coz i can use my card. =D

31) My favourite ringtone:
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue ; The Veronicas - Forever

32) And by the way:
I think i'm gonna watch THE DAVINCI CODE =D

33) The last time i was high:
Yesterday. Class bbq

34) The person who i last spoke to, told me:
Aligators' eggs take 2 weeks or 2 months to hatch ?

35) Once when i took a cab:
Because i dont know the way home

36) Last night:
I slept with my brother and on the comp to listen to song. Offed the comp at 4.30am

37) There's this girl:
Who knows all my dirty little secrets

38) There is this guy:
I like.

*Mad Section*
1. What do you do when you're mad?
Start screaming
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
Reach for wadever in front of me and throw them onto the floor
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
Dont tink so. Brother perhaps
4. Ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?
Yeah. My brother.
5. Do you curse when you're mad?
DUH !?

*Crying Section*
1. Last time you cried your heart out ?
Lets see. 17April
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeah. On the 9May.
3. Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Yarh. Not exactly on the shoulder. But in front of her =D
4. Do you cry when you get an injury?
Depends. If its really DAT painful, den maybe i will.
5. Do certain songs make you cry?
Depends on mood larh. But yarh. Certain songs.

*Pain Section*.
1. What's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?
Gossip =))
2. How depressed can you get?
Till i want to jump down the window

*Happy Section*
1. How much do u smile?
Daily.
2. What can make you happy?
When i'm out SHOPING. Good grades. DANCE. and the list goes on and on ..
3. Do you wish you were happier?
Hmmm. Yeah. A wee bit.
4. What about being with your friends, does that make u happy?
Yeah man.

*Love Section*.
1. Have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?
If he's not willing to die for me. I wont die for him either.
2. Did you ever love a person, and tell him/her that you love him/her?
I didnt. My friends did.
3.Have you loved someone so much, it made you cry?
Its not worth crying for someone who wont cry for you.
4.Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?
I dont tink so.

*Hate Section*
1. Have you ever hated any one that broke your heart?
DUH !?

*Self-Esteem Section*
1. Is your self-esteem extremely low?
Depends who I'm out with and wad i am wearing
2. Do you believe in yourself?
Sometimes. My brother always tell me to believe in myself.
3. What do you say when people say they think you are good looking/pretty?
Snort. I'm not. You are the pretty one.
4. Ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought youweren't good enough?
Dont tink so.
5. Are you happy with who you are?
Tink so. Only a wee bit of unhappiness.

hey. hmmm. back from the chalet and dance. musical rehearsal wadever. its rather depressing. oops. dat time eat too much liao. grown so fat. urgh.

lets recall wad this MADCOW ate
__ice cream 3/4 tub (1.5L)
__150grams of bbq pork
daily basis. ate for about one week.
__2 chicken burgers
dont remind me. i didnt tell my mom i had one liao. den she go buy another one.

wadever larh. i'm so stressed. lol =))
**yesh i know you are thin girl. ur attitude sucks big time. wadever. i dont care**

wadever. continuing
omg. CHALET. thank god i went man. ``phew
it was great fun !!

my mom was so fucked up bcoz the chalet so ''inside inside". den we took 1/2 hour to find larh. mr ho told us it was bus stop B10. B10. loyang industrail park ?! wad the hell. we camp inside. lol. at last we found. yarh. mosquitoes bites a lot. holy crap. itchy scratchy. oh dear. my shoes ''too big'' den make the colour combination so wrong. damnit.

den yarh barbeque lorhs. season the chicken and stuff. den start fire. den the fire all concentrated at the centre one. so the food everytime one side 'chaotarh' one side uncooked. peckhui pro sia. all the chicken she grilled. all very nice. top quality. YAYness. fed the stray cat out ''chao

den da boys came. chongjun, kwang yong, you yue, darren, nicholas. yepp. dey are in charge of drinks. but wad the hell alrh. anyhow make one. too sweet. lol. but wadever. at last su juan took over. she vegetarian. den cant touch meat. yupp. her orange juice. top quality. den the boys all like emperor. they go to the pit. order this and dat. call them fan they each fan 30 seconds den go back eat. watch tv. haiyos. den we cook dey eat. the gerls ate like quite late lorh. poor things.

anyways. we ate larh. den we settled down to watch INCREDIBLE TALES. omg. den shery, trina and peck hui saw this rather handsome guy in black walk past the window. den shery and trina went out to check. dey claimed dat he disappeared. wadever. den i dont know wad the dynamic duo saw. dey screamed so loud. den got scolded by me. shit man. de house so many people. scream wad shit larh.

continuing. the show was ok. den nxt week's one is scary lorh. somemore about chalet. the advertisment was freaky larh. dis 'thing' sit by the guy's bed. wahpiang. scary. viewer's discretion. omg. thank god it wasnt yesterday.

den no more show liao. peck hui, trina, amelia and shery inside the room taking photos. sujuan and shermaine in the kitchen doing housework. the boys playing in heir room. den i alone watching tv. damnit so freaky. windows. door wide pen. ahh. but nothing ahppen larh. coz before dat my eyelids twitch mahh. den su juan say its really bad luck. urghh.

yeah. den shery and trina went home. sakinah, julie and hwee ping left too. den we went to the boys room play. chongjun aka atomicman. lol. chongjun went into NARNIA. coz there's this cupboard like naria. den he really climbed inside. lol. totally cracked up. nicholas also said that dere's a new entrance to narnia. the toilet bowl. haha. lol. den we played tai di. damn i got beinners' luck. hehe =D after dat we played uno. we keep sabing kwang yong. he fed up throw all the cards on the floor. lol.

yeah. we took videos. photos. juz fooled around with one another. fighting for blanket. playing RISK. teasing one another. checking out everyone's phone and stuff. funFUNfun.

den we gerls dont want to o back our room. coz its too spacious and dere's cockroach. but we went in once. got mr ho to kick the cockroach out. tried to get some sleep. but juz cant. probably too excited. den went out to play with the boys. play pepsi cola. the one step here step dere. lol. den i almost killed su juan's toe. before dat kwang yong slammed a chair on her foot also. lol. poor thing.

den we went into the room again. fixed the sleeping arrangement. den tried to get some sleep. still cannot. coz too dark. den very scary. den wanted to go to the boys room to sleep. we went in. dey were on their beds liao. den mr ho told us to get back our rooms. we went in then we heard some noises outside. boys making noise larh. den went out again. drank some tea. den we got tired went back to really sleep.

su juan very daring. sleep on the loor derh mattress all by herself. i slept beside peck hui and shermiane. den i no blanket larh. so cold. shit. we slept at 4.30am and woke up at 6.30 plus am. we slept onli TWO freaking hours. oh god.

next day wake up liao. make breakfast. darren and nicholas in the kitchen very extra. but they kinda helped. yeah wadever. we make coffee for the boys. yarh. got corn, potatoe, bread, sausage, coffee. whee. so proud of ourself =DD

yeah peckhui, amelia, sujuan, shermain, me and kwang yong, we took mom's car back to school. late for half hour. shit. lol. we didnt bathe and brush teeth for dat 2 day. oh dear. everyone was like '' ewww. stay away from dem. '' lol. but wadever larh. we still gonna stink. oh dear. my face was like so sticky and stuff. i want to go do facial liao. crap. i didnt bother to wash it during the cahlet. shit. lol

i had great fun. thank you all for coming. thank you boys for letting us invaid your room for the whole nite. totally cracked up =DD

THANK YOU !! ``muacks. lurveyouu all

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